randomness

I think I've got to potty train Scarlett. She won't potty but she asks to, and now she's become a little stripper. She loves to run around naked. She takes her diaper off every chance she gets too, including this afternoon when she should have been napping. After she had been upstairs a while I heard her "mommmeeeeee" so I grabbed a diaper to change her. Usually if she doesn't go straight to sleep it's because she's pooped so I go prepared. Unfortunately today she pooped & stripped. So yeah there was poop all over her & the crib. After a quick bath and cleaning I put her back down, and hope she won't strip & poop more. I think we'll buy some pretty panties this weekend & just see how that goes...

I wish I had posted my top 3 from last week's American Idol episode, since those were the 3 that moved on to the top 12. David only differed in that he though Anoop should go through instead of the oil rig guy, and right now Anoop is one of my favorites for wild card. But anyway, this week I didn't see an obvious top 3. I think Adam & Megan will be the top guy & girl. But I think Allison & Jesse both have a shot too. And then there's Kris. If a 2nd guy gets through I think it will be him, but I'm betting 2 girls get through this week.

matthew funny

Our bedtime routine is pretty consistent. Last night was no different...David took Matthew in the bathroom to potty & brush teeth and I got Scarlett in bed. Then I started sorting some laundry. Suddenly David opens the bathroom door and says "tell mommy." Matthew is washing his hands and turns to look at me. He says "when I grow up my am going to have a big winkie not a little winkie." Gotta love the things that come out of their mouths, huh?

what a week

I am sinking into that funkitude again. Tuesday I was on such a high. David & I are looking at some options to get moved back to Georgia and I was upbeat & excited. Then yesterday was just a rough day - Matthew was so freaking whiny. I can't stand whining! (heh, look at me whining about not liking whining!) David was supposed to be home from work by 5:10 so I could go to the gym but he was late & I didn't want to be late getting to boot camp because I already needed to leave early so I just didn't go. My choice but it was just frustrating. To know I had planned to go & couldn't. I really needed that hour away from the house.

Today has been better but that's just because Matthew is in a better mood. It actually shifted at bedtime, when I took him & Scarlett upstairs together. Usually if I'm home alone with them I take them both up, put him down, then put her down. Last night was no different but as I tucked him in he said "mommy will you rock me just a little bit?" So I told him to wait & I'd be back. I put Scarlett down & went back & rocked him. He asks for this about once every other week and I admit I love it.

I did manage to fit in some exercise last night but didn't feel it was a good workout. The positive thing is that when I started my weight loss journey last year, this video kicked my butt & now I can barely call it a workout! Goes to show what better shape I'm in, but now I need ideas for good at home workouts. Anyone?

Weigh in today I lost 0.2 lbs....I love my more accurate scale. No matter how many times I get on/off in a short time period, it is consistent. With my old scale I wouldn't have felt I could say I lost 0.2 lbs, but now I am confident that I did!

seriously?

I have a few message boards that I love. At different times of my life I've used different message boards...depending on the purpose of the board and the stage of my life. Now I have a few places I hang out and one of them is a group mainly used by cloth diapering moms. I have gotten a TON of help there with knitting info, so it is a great resource to me, and when a newbie has a question I can answer, I try to offer support, advice, whatever. Well this weekend a post really got my blood boiling. A member asked for support because she didn't want to talk to friends/family yet, and she had found herself in a surprise pregnancy. Most of the responses were very encouraging and supportive, but this one chick...oh man. She pissed me off. She started her response with a "I'm really not sure what to say --- I can't say I feel for you, because to be honest, my husband and I have been trying hard for the last two years to be pregnant with our first" and ended with "btw, there are no unplanned pregnancies ---- or do we need to talk birds and bees???"

I immediately felt so angry and defensive, on the original poster's behalf, that I replied to this message. I was really angry because instead of clicking away, she took the time to sit down and give a really shitty, completely unsupportive response. Of course my response was not very nice, I included "HOW DARE YOU?" and "think before you speak next time! And if you're starting with "I'm really not sure what to say" - then maybe you shouldn't say anything at all!"

I was furious. I think my remarks to this woman were taken pretty badly by some, as they were quick to jump on me about it, but really...why is she even on this message board? I have friends (both in real life and online) who have struggled with infertility. I would like to think I'm a fairly compassionate person, and usually would offer this woman my prayers and support...but not after that message. I mean, I get that people dealing with infertility have good days and bad days, and that on a bad day it would be devastating to read about an unplanned pregnancy, but ya know...on those days wouldn't you be smart enough to avoid a message board where babies are CELEBRATED because that's another tush to cloth diaper?

Later this chick responded to a comment about how birth control sometimes fails with "you plan for pregnancy every time you have SnuggliEXtreme" so the bitch in me totally wants to respond with "Are you just a prude? Maybe if you could type 'sex' instead of coming up with a cutesy way to say what you mean you would get pregnant!" But I won't...because that's just plain mean. But I had to vent about this chick somewhere. As I type this I realize I'm being petty but it really really irked me how she jumped on the original poster who was just looking for support. So now whatever she says I will make fun of her :)

my weight

I've been so frustrated with my weight loss. I am really frustrated with MYSELF for not doing better from September to January. Here...you can see what I mean:




If I had done better during that time, I would be at my goal. I wouldn't be kicking myself over it. I would be shifting gears to maintain, not lose. But I'm not. I'm still working on the losing. Bah. I'm hoping to be at goal in the next 10 weeks. Totally doable, if I stick to my plan!

confession time (updated)

I'm sure if I put some thought into it I could come up with lots of gnarly things to confess, but my big secret right now is about to be out. You ready for this?

I.

haven't.

taken.

down.

my.

Christmas.

decorations!

Yep, that's right. I put them up the first weekend of December and have just loved loved loved having them up. I never feel like the Christmas season lasts long enough, so I usually leave my decorations up a bit longer than most people. But here it is almost Valentine's Day, and my stuff is still up. I did take the outside garland and lower lights down last weekend, but the lights at the top of the house...still up. (David says they have to stay until the ice is gone. They may be there in June at the rate we're going!) And I'm still using my Christmas dishes too.

No matter how much I love Christmas and the decorations that come with it, it's time for them to be packed away. But I'm just too damn lazy to do it!

So that's my big confession. I'm embarrassed by this. Just so that I'm not the only one embarrassed today, don't you want to share a confession too???

My second confession - I was in a secret santa exchange & even though the box has been packed ready to go for a while, I STILL haven't weighed & mailed it. :(

so sweet together

Matthew and Scarlett have been horrible this week. Yep, I said it. I am sure they know I'm not feeling well so they are taking full advantage. But then they have their really sweet moments too. Like when Scarlett has asked me "book?" for the hundredth time and my throat is just too sore to read another story, and Matthew says "My read to Scar-ett" and they sit down together in the chair with a book. He has a lot of their books memorized now and the ones he doesn't he just makes something up to go along with the picture. I love moments like this.

The other fun thing they've been doing is he will ask her "do you want to walk with me?" and then they hold hands and run in circles around the recliner, until he is going too fast for her and she trips, then they both fall down. Ok so the tripping & falling down isn't my favorite part, but it is sweet to watch them run holding hands.

Scarlett also wants to kiss anytime she thinks you're hurt. Last night they kept climbing on me, poking knees and elbows into places they don't belong. Occasionally I would say "ow, let's move that leg" or something, and as soon as I said "ow" Scarlett was looking at me "kiss?" and then kissing me wherever she thought I was hurt. Life is good, even when I feel like crap.

eewwww

After posting Friday about Matthew & David being sick, I started feeling it Saturday. It's just gotten worse (thankfully Matthew got over it really fast - he was the only one to have a fever and maybe that helped?) and today I feel rotten. Of course I don't get sick days so I just have to grin & bear it with the kids. I would have asked David to stay home but after he took time off last week and has to be off Wednesday I hated to. Oh well, such is life. Sometimes I wish I worked :)

The short people at my house have been absolutely rotten today - I keep reminding myself that part of it is due to me feeling so bad, that makes them seem worse, but seriously - I have to look back at posts to remind myself they love each other.

The eeewwww moment of my day came at breakfast - I had gone to the kitchen to get a bathcloth to wipe their mouths & hands. When I walked back into the dining room, Matthew was kind of smacking & I knew he had eaten everything so I asked what he was eating. He just pointed at his mouth and said "yummy" so I asked again. He then told me it came from his nose and it was yummy. GAG. Seriously gross. We had a little chat about how we don't eat things that come from our noses.

Ya know, someday the love of his life might come across this out in webland...ya think I need a little censorship?

ugh - I'm so forgetful!

Seriously, the kids have done so many cute things lately and I've meant to write about them but then something else happens so I don't get to the computer and I forget what it was by the time I do. I put up another video of Matthew ice skating. He has really improved. Unfortunately he's been sick the last couple of days and I hate hate hate having a sick kid. I feel so bad for them, I would so much rather me be sick than them. He is just pitiful. David is also sick and that's almost as bad as Matthew being sick.

Scarlett feels great though! She has been asking for her bear (that was actually mine when I was little) for naps & bedtime, and I certainly wouldn't care if she got attached to it. I had two things I slept with as a child (actually until I got married!) and Matthew uses one of them and it's looking like she *might* use the other. I think that's pretty cool.

I'm knitting a baby blanket...I started it almost a month ago and after frogging it 3 times I finally got it going but am just now almost half-way. I only knit when the kids are napping or in bed but still - it's taking way longer than I expected. At least now I know to expect it to take me 2 months if I want to make a baby blanket! I think I'm a slow knitter, huh?

Scarlett & Matthew are so loving towards each other - I love watching them interact. They give frequent hugs & kisses, to each other & to us. Anytime we sneeze or cough Scarlett says "bless you". Matthew kept telling David yesterday "My sorry you are sick." Matthew has also been wanting to hide from us & then let us hide from him. He's been asking a lot lately about letters..."what does that letter say?" and stuff.

I tell him & we talk about it when he asks but I don't go out of my way to teach him stuff. When we first made the decision for me to stay at home, I thought I would structure our days a lot like daycare and have certain times where we focus on different activities, including educational things. But nah, I don't do it. I just try to make sure we have fun. I kinda have that "that's what childhood is all about" idea, but then I don't want them to be behind when they go to school.

Oh well, here's that video - again the quality is krap because I forgot our regular camera. And I swear next time the kids do something cute, I'll try to drop everything & blog :)

bah bahb blahe

What can I say, I'm tired of titles. We had a great weekend. We did a lot of shopping Friday night so it was out of the way. Saturday I went to boot camp and felt like I had a real kick ass day. No, I'm not the fastest but I can see such an improvement. I am so freaking competitive that it has been hard for me to go to this class...first with GUYS in it, that have real muscles, and second with girls who have like 5% body fat. I know I *can't* run as fast as they can, I *can't* lift as much weight as they can, I *can't* do as many push-ups, crunches, leg lifts, whatever, as they can, but I *can* do my best every time, and I *can* try to beat myself. By beating myself I mean, if I ran 10 laps last week, let's see if I can run 12 this week. Although when I do sprints beside "A", I do find myself trying to keep up...I usually can for the first few, but I don't have the endurance she does. I'm getting there, and that makes me feel good. I also feel myself wanting to be a gym rat...I want to go more & more, but it's hard to find time. I gotta figure out a good schedule.

David took the kids outside & they built a snowman. Scarlett's gloves and boots kept coming off so she couldn't stay out very long. She cried when David brought her in though, until she got lunch - then she was a happy girl.

Today Matthew had ice skating. We finally found a pair of skates that actually fits him, although they don't lace up so they aren't as good, but we figured we'd see how it went with them today. And he did GREAT! He stayed up so much better than he was, and he kept his feet pointed straight more often. I think it was just easier to balance with the shoes fitting him better. I was SO proud of him today. Ok, I was proud of him every week, but today especially. It helped that the teacher put candy down on the ice & told them if they skated to the candy they could have it. That boy loves candy. I was extra proud of him when he came off the ice & Scarlett asked for a bite of his candy, and yep, he gave it to her! So sweet :)