frustration, decisions, and other news

This whole weight loss thing is getting frustrating. It doesn't help that the more frustrated I get, the more I eat, and the less I exercise. Eating too much is what got me fat in the first place, I don't want to be there again. Yet I'm somehow unwilling to keep myself on the right path. So I've decided to take a semi-break. Seeing as how I've fluctuated between 138-142 since early September, I don't know that I'm really taking much of a break. I'm just going to try not to worry much about it until January. We are going to be on the road a lot over the next month and we will have family visiting here too. Between now & January 4, we will only be home "just us" for 14 days. That's 14 days that I would definitely eat healthy, but when we have family here from out of town, I LIKE to cook for them, I ENJOY it, but that pleasure comes mainly from baking, and that's not healthy eating. And let's face it, I'm not strong enough to bake it & not eat it! Then when we are not home, it's even harder.

So I'll do the best I can, I'll eat as well as I can, and I'll try not to overeat. That has been a big problem for me in the past, but I've noticed I've gotten a lot better. Yesterday I didn't even come close to finishing the box lunch we had at the seminar I attended. A year ago I would have wolfed down the whole thing, but then a year ago I was exclusively breastfeeding and starving all the time...maybe that's not a good comparison.

In other news, yesterday I went to a seminar that will hopefully be a first step in our little foursome relocating to Georgia. I'm excited about the possibility, but nervous too. I'm rarely away for a full day and last night when I got home Matthew walked into the dining room and I would have sworn he grew overnight (he was still in bed when I left yesterday morning.) David mentioned that they'd gone for haircuts that morning and I know he always looks older after a trim.

Matthew is still doing great with potty training. He has had a couple of accidents but at least one of them was his daddy's fault. He is staying dry at naps and even sometimes overnight. (He gets underwear for naps but a diaper overnight.) Scarlett asks to sit on the potty too, and we are encouraging that. I'd love it if I had her potty trained soon too.

The interaction between Matthew & Scarlett continues to amaze me. They play together really well. A popular evening activity has been football. Scarlett likes to run around with her doll in one arm and the ball in the other. I have tried to get a picture of this but she usually drops one when she sees the camera - too busy cheesing it up!